Monday, June 15, 2009
Changes Are Coming My Way
I'm not sure what I'm going to write tonight. We've pretty much finished school, we're doing some cleaning.
I'm trying to stay on top of the weeding and laundry and there are some changes coming our way.
I guess I'll share about these changes.
Homeschooling has been so good for us and so fun, but as I saw that we weren't able to make ends meet I felt compelled to go back to work.
I have to admit the math and language arts were getting frustrating and difficult for me as well. I have not been very patient with my kids and I feel like I need to let go and move on. I support and encourage any homeschoolers out there, these are just my circumstances. It's my story. Everyone has a different story.
I haven't worked for fourteen years, my kids have never been to public school and my husband is looking for a new job. These are not end of the world circumstances, I know, but I personally do not like change.
I like structure, predictability, consistency, routines...you know, no changes. Sometimes I'm flexible and spur of the moment, but I'm not known for it.
I've also been doing things my way and at my own pace (slow) for those fourteen years. I'm scared and yet I am excited to get some of the changing going. Once I'm on board, I'm fine with change, but if it's not my idea and I have to change, I'm a little stubborn.
That brings me to God who never changes. In a world of constant changes knowing He remains the same is comforting. I know I can depend on Him to bring me through these changes. Thank the good Lord.
Filling out applications on line is a new experience for me. It has taken a long time and I haven't completely finished one yet. I need references, letters of recommendation, college transcripts (oh please, it's been about twenty years since I've been in college),
previous experience, and explanations of how my skills and experience will benefit these employers. I have to really toot my horn about what I've been doing for the last fourteen years. It has been a real challenge. This is only the beginning. It could take months to find a job.
I'm apprehensive because my kids will be in school most of the day and I'll be gone all day. I'm not used to them walking to and from school (if they have to) and then being home alone until someone gets here.
My husband is nearing the possibility of landing a new job (pray about his interview this Wednesday, June 17th) and that will mean he will work day shift. He has worked swing shift for years which has been great while homeschooling.
It has worked out nicely because he has been able to help with school and be with us all morning. He works on projects and repairs too. We have our main meal at lunchtime and he goes to work.
If I were going to be at home while everything else changed, I'd be okay with that, but I'm going to go through a big change too. Different schedules, different meal time, working and doing all that I do now (like all of you working mom's have done for years. Kuddos to you all.), homework in the evenings and ...well you all know. To me, that is scary!!!
God never said it would be easy or that we could do it all our way, so I'm placing everything in His hands (it is anyway) and praying for the peace that passes all understanding.
I'd appreciate any prayers that you might offer up to Jesus for our family. Thanks. Now let's enjoy summer!!